Wednesday, December 25, 2019
I've clarified it on individual terms, but have so far avoided a secondary (or would that be tertiary?) public statement. And that's probably hurt me in social media because a lot of times people assume the worst. Especially in this day and age when it seems like half the population are abusers, scumbags, terrorists, intolerant religious zealots, sociopaths, hardened criminals, political extremists, and so on and so forth.
For a quick refresher, here is my original blog post, from over a year ago, where I came out as za'akier, a green-skinned, tentacled humanoid... biologically human*, but still extraterrestrial regarding identity. And that's what it all comes down to. How I see myself is different than how others probably view me. And that's ok... expected, even.
I'm an outsider. That's one of the reasons why I gravitate towards the writing of H.P. Lovecraft, and why I find a kinship with him and other writers in the Lovecraft Circle, other creators using the Cthulhu Mythos to push something forward, an agenda that goes beyond time and space.
But that's a blog post for another time, I think.
Right now, I want to reassure those who already know and support me, and those I haven't gotten the chance to meet (lot of angry people on reddit), that I'm not against anyone based on skin color, ethnicity, sexual preferences (unless you're a pedophile), identity, gender, politics, creed, etc.
My opening up to the internet about being za'akier wasn't about tearing anyone down or mocking those who are different, marginalized, etc. On the contrary, I was identifying as an outsider, specifically the kind of alien identification previously mentioned.
To me, the term "trans" means more to me than a penis, vagina, beard, shaved legs, or any of the superficial trappings of biological sex and what we conceptualize as gender. Transformation is rooted in how we see ourselves, and the cognitive dissonance that might evolve between our own self-perspective and that of the world at large.
To those who've hurt me, whether intentional or not, this past year, I forgive you. But let's get over our differences sooner than later, yeah?
It's Christmas today. If I could have one wish for the entire world, it would be for everyone to breathe deeply, try to relax, be themselves (leave the "hivemind" at the door), and get along with as many people as humanly possible.
* There's some interesting information on "otherkin" which may or may not muddy the waters. I'm not saying that I'm part of that group, and I'm not saying I'm not. It's complicated.